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It blows my mind.
My second child is due in just 9 weeks and the knowledge that Eve is soon to become a big sister is making me look at her with renewed eyes. She has gone from a wholly dependent little baby to a bright, funny little child running around our house.
I feel very aware at the moment that we are living in the 'before.' I have no idea what the 'after' is going to bring, and I am sure that soon enough I wont be able to imagine going back to being the parent of just one child, but for now, for now, it is oh so sweet.
My girl is so happy, so bright and bubbly and loved. Our days are easy and fun, our nights are filled with 12 hours of peaceful slumber, our mornings start with a giggly little girl running down the hallway to spend that quiet early morning hour being loved on by both her parents. She has all of our love, time and attention and so far it isn't spoiling her - quite the opposite, she is blooming like a flower being nourished under perfect conditions.
I know how blessed we are to be adding another baby to our family but it also feels daunting to change what is so good and working so well. I worry about how Eve will deal with the transition ahead. I'm also a little concerned about upsetting the balance we have now - currently we get lots of family time, some couple time and Johnnie and I also manage to get enough time to ourselves. I imagine that is going to become more difficult as we add another child to our family.
However, baby number 2 is on his or her way and we are just going to have to figure it all out and make it work. Eve has brought us so much joy that the thought of doubling that feels like the biggest blessing and gift.
I still have 8 or 9 weeks of this pregnancy to go but I have a feeling I may not get there - it feels like this baby may be planning to enter the world a little early, so we shall see. In the meantime I'm going to spend however long I have left before becoming a mother of two just loving on my first born girl.
It really isn't hard:
